“Everyone is like a butterfly, they start out ugly and awkward and then morph into beautiful graceful butterflies that everyone love.
– Drew Barrymore”
One day while I was perusing the ever so eccentric internet I saw this quote from Drew Barrymore. While I was reading it I started to do mini montage series in my head of the past 20 years of my life. I thought long and hard about everything, from the first day of kindergarten to my first day of college. I repeated the quote over and over in my head as I thought about all of the events leading up to this moment. Finally, I read the quote one last time and it was at that exact moment that I determined that Drew Barrymore was highly misinformed.
Don’t get me wrong I don’t think that she is completely wrong. In fact part of me agrees with her in that she got the first part of the quote right “everyone starts out ugly and awkward” but the second half is where things get a like shaky. You see some people (i.e. us) never morph into the “graceful” butterflies that were supposed to become. Some people hit that moment in their life where the pieces just fit. And others, well lets just say they’re not as lucky. My best example being us.
Personally, our transformation was more so from “ugly and awkward” to “not so ugly yet somehow more awkward than before”. I’m telling you, there was a point in our lives where we took a wrong turn from everyone else and never seemed to get back on track. However, the key here is not to panic, but to embrace it.
Now I must confess that this was no Sunday morning epiphany. Realizing that we needed to embrace awkwardness developed over length of time. It took a very (very) long list of weird and awkward experiences for us to realize that this was as good as it was going to get. You see, over the past 20 years we have been able to acknowledge, accept and adapt to our never ending awkwardness. We came to terms with the fact that not everyone gets to turn into a graceful, beautiful butterfly, and that sometimes you’ve got to be a moth. However, once you accept and embrace the fact you’re an awkward bitty, people start to get accustomed to it. Don’t believe me? Let me give you an example.
We take a zumba class together along with our friends a few days week. The first time I took this class I was so excited, I was having fun. I thought the instructor was great and so was the music. So when the instructor asked if everyone was having fun, I let the excitement take over me and let out a loud “woooooo”. Unfortunately, no one else felt the same way I did and I was the only one who answered. The entire class stared at me with salty looks, sending me daggers through the many mirrors in the room. I was horrified but it didn’t stop me and I continued to return to class because I liked it. We still take the class to this day and my instructor still asks if everyone is having fun. Proudly, I am still the lone wolf, answering her question with my cheers of “wooooooo”, however I am not getting those salty looks from my classmates anymore.
Moral of the story: Embrace the awkwardness because I guarantee there is nothing you could lose.